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I've had this thinkblog up and running for a good number of months now, yet I have not even once written a post. In retrospect, I would say the reason for this is because I was a little afraid. Rather, I was very much afraid. There are very few people that I have shared, or continue to share, my deeper thoughts with. Those thoughts are a tender portion of myself, in a way, and as such I fear for their well-being. When spoken beneath scrutiny, critising words (however constructive) can quite easily sound unnervingly harsh. This fact has become all too real for me within the past month, as I once attempted to share my thoughts. Thus, I realise that the primary reason for which I have not written an entry is simply because I have been fearful of how it will be taken. But this blog is definitely not one for emotion, as it is simply a storage area, if you will. I will for this purpose discontinue that train of thought.

I decided to make this initial thinkblog entry purely to explain its purpose as a thinkblog. I feel that this will allow me to have a starting point so that perhaps I will make a real post in the near future, but at the same time still have some sort of material online. In the following paragraphs, I will first explain the actual essence of the blog itself, and then I will explain the two reasons for choosing to use a blog. If you do not understand the subject line, don't try to.

So first and foremost would be the reason that this blog exists in the first place. This should be a fairly simple one to answer. It is to think, in a manner of speaking, however shabby that manner may be. I enjoy the process of thought, as well as the end result. It is because of this that I basically try to think whenever I get the chance. Admittedly, that window of opportunity is extraordinarily small as of late. Trying to fit school, enough work, household duties, and the vast array of obligations made to other people all together into one little week is proving to be quite the difficult task, though I am as of yet seeming to succeed. As a result of that success, however, I have little to no time left over for myself. This brings us to our far previous statement: I don't get to think very often. That was too long an explanation for such a minor topic, but I am going to leave it because I am definitely not in the mood to rewrite it, in summarisation. The fact is, this blogs exists as a medium upon which I can record my thoughts.

Next in order is why I chose to make use of a "web-log", as it were. The primary reasoning behind this is simple. As stated above, I required a medium to record my thoughts. What I did not reveal is particularly why this medium was neccessary. You see, I am a very forgetful person. Mind you... My long-term memory is, as I have been told, quite exceptional. But when it comes to any memory work in the short-term, well... You could basically consider me a void. I have a million theories brewing in the back of my head but the more I create, the more I forget. I know that there are already a number of ideas that have left me, though I am sure if they are prompted at a later date they shall return. The problem is, I cannot call upon them at will, as I cannot even remember what they are. That is one of the reasons I am using this blog. I need a place to record my thoughts, otherwise they will all be lost. I could write them down into a little booklet journal, sure. But from my own perspective, that approach is a little passé. Next line in thought is a Word document or Notepad text file on my computer, or something to that effect. The problem with that is that if my computer crashes and I lose the data on the harddrive, it's all gone. So let me tell you, my computer is likely not far from that stage. The next logical course would be to store it online. A web-based server with the sole intent of storing people's information on the Internet is highly unlikely to simply crash and lose all of its data, because such a system would most definitely have a number of backup systems. It does still have a chance, however, so if I store it both locally and online, I can mostly rest assured that it will be safe. So this is what I do. In addition to that, though, I chose Blogger because it is run by Google. I think that says enough about the guarantee of a secure server.

The secondary reasoning is also fairly simple. Søren Kierkegaard wrote Fear and Trembling, he wrote Either/Or and he kept a very profound journal which we now have mostly intact. Fyodor Dostoevski wrote Crime and Punishment, The Grand Inquisitor, Notes from the Underground... Friedrich Nietzsche gave us Thus Spake Zarathustra, and who could forget his Beyond Good and Evil? Then we have Plato's Republic, Hobbes' Leviathan, Hume's Natural Religion, Freud's The Interpretation of Dreams, and Darwin's Origin of Species. Mind you, I realise the list was unnecessarily long but I felt that in making it such I would more effectively get my point across. Almost all of the great thinkers from the past (apart from Socrates) wrote their thoughts down for others to later read. By no means do I compare myself to the likes of those thinkers, but I believe that others may find interest in what I have to say. If this is not true, so be it. But perhaps at some point or another, something I have thought and thus articulated will assist another fellow thinker in his or her own quest. Perhaps something on this webpage will allow another to break through an obstacle of thought that has hindered them and will then allow them to continue on far past my own end on the subject. I have decided to leave my philosophies upon an online blog for the perusal of others at their own will, should they decide it.

In conclusion, the purpose of this thinkblog is for me to record my thoughts and philosophies, my theories and opinions, upon some sort of generally permanent medium that others will have access to. Each entry will pertain to a completely different aspect, and so that they are as accurate to my original ideas as possible, I shall be taking weeks on end to write each one. There will also be a large span of time between my attempts to write each one, due to my lack thereof. So as you can thus understand, each thinkblog entry will have a long wait before it appears. So don't be checking this thing everyday, or you'll turn out disappointed ninety per cent of the time. The next entry will not be for quite a long while... I have no idea where to start.